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It is Not Fair

being alone no connection no love no hope death is always fair life, not so much. Being without parents, friends, a job, a purpose, money, animals, nature. It is not fair.

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Suicide Kid

Hello this is me. I’m that guy. you know who the one always cracking jokes I’m lost But I won’t say that to you ever I’m lost and honestly death doesn’t seem too scary I can think of it everyday all day and still act

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Your Parents Are Getting Older

As time goes by, you start taking more responsibilities in your life, in order to be an adult you gotta become more reliable, dependable, self-sufficient. But if you haven’t felt the need to become an adult just yet, maybe this post can shine a light into your mind. Think

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Can't Stop

I can’t stop moving. If I stop moving, I start thinking too much. Thinking helps to solve problems in the real world, but it rarely helps with emotional ones. I have deep things inside broken and I don’t know how to fix it. I am starting to think

5 Quick Tips for Those Who HATE reading

I hate to read. GOD I HATE READING. If you are like that too, maybe I can offer an alternative view on it. I remember in school when those teachers practically mentally abused me by forcing me to read all those books. What I realized(later than I wanted to)

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Pro

Playing professional. Sitting and working turns into inspiration. Love the game. Doesn’t care about rewards or setbacks. Just wants to get better at the game. Keeps going. Sits down. “Inspiration comes to the one that starts working without it.” Creation is heaven. Waiting is hell. “Fuck being productive”. Focus

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Nihilism isn't Useful

Keep telling yourself your life has no inherent meaning, let me know where that leads you. I know where it led me. Nihilism killed me in adolescence, today I dealt with it by removing it as an acceptable thought “In billions of years the universe won’t care you existed”

Anime isn't for kids, it's for Everyone: Persistence

I know plenty of people that don’t really like anime(japanese cartoons) but never really watched it apart from the early morning cartoons. For those people, and to those that already love anime and want to remember some awesome scenes from some anime I write this post and any

Stoicism: Why there isn't Hope, and that is Okay

First of all: If you are Depressed, Bi-polar, or have any psychic illness, you should go see a doctor. Also, this blog post can contain suicide triggers for those who could be affected. If that’s you, go to a doctor and read no more. Still here? Cool. Yes that

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If You Do What is Easy

Your life will be hard. What do I do that is easy? Procrastination is easy. Questioning “should I do this?” all the time is easy. Not stopping to think where you want to be is easy. Saying “life is meaningless” and not setting any goals is easy.

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Trust the Process

Surrender the Outcome. Maybe I can fix myself. Maybe I can’t. I need to believe in the option that makes life worth living. My life has always been something to endure. Family life doesn’t give me gratification, friends rarely give me something to feel good about. Dating feels

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Gum Disease

Smoking is sexy To light fire so close to your mouth shows you like danger You are misterious sexy dangerous But apart from all that alure I still can’t cope seeing relatives losing teeth and having to go through several years of treatment to rebuild their gum It’s