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School Religion College teachers parents friends car crash trauma death heartbreak no one comes out of this unbroken there is no hope there is no despair to believe otherwise is to prove how deluded you really are do you want to be happy or right?
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So many words have been used to describe sadness. You are sad that is it. It is normal Regular Human Being human isn’t that much interesting though being an entrepreneur software engineer detective doctor artist That sounds better than being human caring for flowers, dogs, kids, but not ourselves.
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All fucked. You are all fucked Tring to disguise it To turn extraordinary situations into common experiences Love into sex Sex into something else Turn a world where everything is just as it is into division into politics into belief The world where a simple bird becomes focus of great
openletter
I can’t stop moving. If I stop moving, I start thinking too much. Thinking helps to solve problems in the real world, but it rarely helps with emotional ones. I have deep things inside broken and I don’t know how to fix it. I am starting to think
openletter
As time goes by, you start taking more responsibilities in your life, in order to be an adult you gotta become more reliable, dependable, self-sufficient. But if you haven’t felt the need to become an adult just yet, maybe this post can shine a light into your mind. Think
I hate to read. GOD I HATE READING. If you are like that too, maybe I can offer an alternative view on it. I remember in school when those teachers practically mentally abused me by forcing me to read all those books. What I realized(later than I wanted to)
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Playing professional. Sitting and working turns into inspiration. Love the game. Doesn’t care about rewards or setbacks. Just wants to get better at the game. Keeps going. Sits down. “Inspiration comes to the one that starts working without it.” Creation is heaven. Waiting is hell. “Fuck being productive”. Focus
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Keep telling yourself your life has no inherent meaning, let me know where that leads you. I know where it led me. Nihilism killed me in adolescence, today I dealt with it by removing it as an acceptable thought “In billions of years the universe won’t care you existed”
I know plenty of people that don’t really like anime(japanese cartoons) but never really watched it apart from the early morning cartoons. For those people, and to those that already love anime and want to remember some awesome scenes from some anime I write this post and any
First of all: If you are Depressed, Bi-polar, or have any psychic illness, you should go see a doctor. Also, this blog post can contain suicide triggers for those who could be affected. If that’s you, go to a doctor and read no more. Still here? Cool. Yes that
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Your life will be hard. What do I do that is easy? Procrastination is easy. Questioning “should I do this?” all the time is easy. Not stopping to think where you want to be is easy. Saying “life is meaningless” and not setting any goals is easy.
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Surrender the Outcome. Maybe I can fix myself. Maybe I can’t. I need to believe in the option that makes life worth living. My life has always been something to endure. Family life doesn’t give me gratification, friends rarely give me something to feel good about. Dating feels