iQuit

I don’t try anymore

there’s not even hate.

just

disappointment

with things

myself

others.

I just decided to stop trying

I don’t try to enjoy anything

I don’t try to do anything

I don’t expect to get better

there’s no better.

there’s just this

limbo.

nothingness

formlessness

chaos.

nothing to do

nothing to be done.

iQuit this world

and my expectations of it.

My job

my duties

my roles.

That is what pleasure does to you.

Sex

Isolation

Money

TV

Games

Beer

Wine

Drugs

no purpose

no art

no nothing.

I’ll do anything

but make an effort to be better.

better regarding who?

Not myself.

I’m dead.

Dead.

dead.

dead.

dead.

dead.